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From Mystical Premonitions to Contemplation

July 14, 2015 by  
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From Mystical Premonitions to Contemplation

Sometime ago, I was speaking about what I called mystical premonition, or touches of God, when one of the audience asked, “Are we talking about something that is a particularly Christian experience, or does everyone experience God’s touch?”

“It’s for everyone,” I replied emphatically. “God loves everyone, not just Christians, but Christians do respond in a unique way.” Let me explain what I mean. Long before he became a saint, when he was still a pagan, St. Augustine experienced those ‘touches of God’. In writing about the way he reacted to them in his Confessions he gives us a perfect example of how we should react too, in order to deepen our spiritual life. From his Confessions:

augustine-botticelli1“When first I knew you, you lifted me up so that I might see that there was something to see, but that I was not yet the man to see it. And you beat back the weakness of my gaze, blazing upon me too strongly, and I was shaken with love and with dread.” [VII.10] “You called and cried to me and broke open my deafness and you sent forth your beams and shone upon me and chased away my blindness. You breathed fragrance upon me, and I drew in my breath, and do now pant for you. I tasted you, and now hunger and thirst for you. You touched me, and I have burned for your peace.” [X.27]  “So I set about finding a way to gain the strength that was necessary for enjoying you. And I could not find it until I embraced the mediator between God and man, the man Christ Jesus, who was calling unto me and saying, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life’.” [VII.18]

Many of us have had what are sometimes called ‘natural mystical experiences’, especially when we were young, but few of us are able to describe them in the sublime language that St. Augustine uses. Whilst many of the great romantic poets spend their entire time trying to transpose their experiences into words, capturing them in sublime poetry, Augustine rushes on to seek the source whence they came. His search leads him to Jesus Christ, for he finds in him the Masterpiece of God’s creation. The fragments of God’s beauty and goodness and truth that are scattered in the rest of creation are to be found fully in the Masterwork.

This is why he spent years getting to know Jesus Christ by poring over his every word in the scriptures and by responding in his own words, until a sort of spiritual conversation developed in his prayer life. To begin with, the knowledge was predominantly intellectual, but it gradually became more and more emotional as he experienced the love of Christ reaching out to envelop his mind and heart and his whole being. Now he began to respond in the language of love as his deepest feelings awoke to the love he experienced, reaching out to envelop him. Finally, when everything had been said that needed to be said, he found that all he wanted to do was to be still, to savour in silence what he had received in a deep but ‘heart-felt’ contemplative stillness. This experience of St Augustine follows a similar pattern to human loving.

To begin with, a couple talks, but the more they talk to each other and get to know one another the less they need to speak. The more the spark of love that was there from the beginning begins to flicker into a flame, the less they need words to express how they feel. It is now enough just to be together and to savour one another’s presence and the love that binds them together. This profound ‘at-one-ment’ is beautifully expressed in John Donne’s poem, The Ecstasy:

We like sepulchral statues lay;
All day, the same our postures were,
And we said nothing, all the day.

The same sort of idea is expressed by D. H. Lawrence in Women in Love, when he writes:

‘Words travel between the separate parts.
But in the perfect one there is a perfect silence of bliss.’

St. Augustine knew it was Christ whose love he experienced enveloping his whole being, as the first part of his spiritual journey reached its climax. Medieval spiritual writers used the words ‘meditatio’, ‘oratio’, and ‘contemplatio’ to describe how the initial intellectual beginnings of prayer develop through highly charged emotional aspirations, to the still and silent gaze upon God. During the Counter-Reformation, when spiritual writers became a little more analytical and psychological, they used the terms Meditation, Affective Prayer, Prayer of Simplicity, and Acquired Contemplation to describe what their medieval forebears had described before them. The phrase ‘acquired contemplation’ was coined to describe the final stage of this process, because it can be reached by human endeavor, to distinguish it from true mystical contemplation which, as we will see, is a pure gift of God that cannot be attained by any man-made methods or techniques.

Given serious commitment to prayer, love grows and grows with ever deepening knowledge of the Lover, that comes through listening to his words and discovering that they are not only charged with meaning that had not been understood before, but loving that had not been experienced before. This is why the slow meditative reading of the words of Jesus in the sacred Still_life_with_BibleScriptures has always been the primary way that the heart and mind of the believer is raised to the Father through the Son. As the desire that was there from the beginning is buoyed up by human feelings and emotions, it is able to remain focused on God and to remain so for longer periods of time than before. Prayer now becomes no more than a simple, silent, contemplative gaze upon God. What I called Adolescent Prayer now reaches a climax, which suddenly changes when the heart’s desire, that had been sustained and supported by a whole range of human emotions before, is suddenly raised above and beyond them as it reaches out to experience the Unknown who beckons them onward. It’s as if the heart or the will has suddenly fastened on to some mysterious magnetic power that draws it relentlessly towards itself. Once this happens, Adolescent Prayer comes to an abrupt end. There can be no going back even if a person wanted to. The days of this exciting, exhilarating, emotional prayer have ended, never to return in quite the same way again.

Let me give you an analogy to explain a little more clearly what has happened. When a rocket or a spaceship destined for the planet Mars is ready to depart, it has attached to it boosters, huge canisters of fuel, whose job it is to raise it up off the ground and out of the earth’s atmosphere. When they have done this they will be of no further value, so they must be detached from the spaceship or they would impede its progress towards its destination. As the spaceship comes closer to Mars it comes under the planet’s magnetic force and travels faster and faster. The boosters or the canisters of fuel, then, fulfill exactly the same function for the spaceship as do the Wisdom from the Western Islesemotions that have been activated in ‘adolescent prayer’, as they raise and direct the heart’s desire towards God. They raise it up off the ground, as it were, where it has been earthbound. They raise it higher and higher for as long as it takes to latch on to the mysterious magnetic pull of the divine love. This is now the beginning of true contemplative prayer. Precisely what is happening now and why, and how a new form of prayer must be learned to facilitate this sublime call from God, is the subject of all my writings on mystical theology and in particular of the third part of my book: “Wisdom from the Western Isles”.


Art: Augustine of Hippo [retouched], c. 1490, Sandro Botticelli, PD-Worldwide; Two Candles in Love, Nevit Dilman, own work, 2006, CCA-SA; Still Life with Bible, Vincent Van Gogh, 1885, PD-Art, Wikimedia Commons. Feature art: Black Sea Sunrise, Bogdan, 2008-08-12, CC by SA, Wikimedia Commons. Cover of Wisdom from the Western Isles used with permission.

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David Torkington is a Spiritual Theologian, Author and Speaker, who specializes in Prayer, Christian Spirituality and Mystical Theology. He was educated at the Franciscan Study Centre, England, and the National Catholic Radio and Television Centre, Hatch End, London where he was later appointed to the post of Dean of Studies. He was extra mural lecturer in Mystical Theology at the Dominican University in Rome (The Angelicum). In addition to giving Retreats and lecturing all over Europe, he undertook five prolonged lecture tours to Africa, mainly Equatorial Africa, speaking on Prayer and Spirituality to Religious, Monks, Diocesan Priests and lay people. His personal spirituality is predominantly Franciscan, and his Mystical Theology Carmelite. He has sold over 200,000 books in more than twelve different languages. His two most recent books are "Wisdom from the Western Isles – The Making of a Mystic" and "Wisdom from Franciscan Italy – The Primacy of Love". He is at present working on his latest book, Wisdom from the Christian Mystics. When he is not writing, he and his wife spend time on their boat on the peaceful Beaulieu River in the New Forest, Hampshire, or in Poole Harbour, Dorset, exploring the Jurassic coast. His website is He blogs at, is on Facebook at DavidJohnTorkington and Tweets at DTorkington. His personal conviction is that there is only one way forward for the serious searcher who wishes to be transformed into Christ in this life, and that is, in the words of St Teresa of Avila, “There is only one way to perfection and that is to pray. If anyone points in another direction then they are deceiving you.”

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  • Diana Marie Winkler

    I liked the analogy it gave me a visual .Being a revert I can now look back to the many times God was with me even when I thought He had abandoned me not realizing He was allowing me free-will. I realize I have always been on His Path, but took a few detours. He never did let me venture completely off the road. It was as if as He walked with me and when I swerved He gently just had to give me a guiding “touch” to keep me from falling off completely.Although there were times I venturedI too far. Through the relationship I have developed with Him and His mercy I no longer beat myself up for the past transgressions, that I really was not a horrible person, just a lost “child” that had let go of my Father’s Hand to run ahead to an unknown.But, He has opened my eyes to see clearly the road on which I am to walk. I now know and recognize the roadblocks. He has taught me how to go around or step over them without losing my way.Learning what I have, there are times of giddiness just knowing I am so hopelessly in love with Him! To God be the Glory!

    • LizEst

      See David’s response to you above.

    • Cathy

      I concur with you Diana Marie,reviewing over the years prior and since I came home I see how I was only to go so far and then to be pulled and redirected on the
      Only path that leads to Eternal Life!

  • David Torkington

    Diana, Thank you for your moving comment. He is always ‘loving’, it is our free will to accept or reject this love. Turning to receive His love makes us realize that He has always been there for us.

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