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Broken? – Intermission

January 25, 2013 by  
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Broken? – Intermission

Dear RCSD Family and Friends,

One of the most valuable lessons we learn about the spiritual life is that our vision for our life, plans, answers to prayer, etc. are often different from how things end up. (God’s plan)

pieta4God works in mysterious ways. The writing for this poem is no exception. In my vision for it, I expected that everything I needed to know in order to write the posts had already happened. Not true. In fact, I have been repeatedly surprised and delighted to find my fingers typing about experiences that are very recent, and in my imagination I see the Lord smiling at me, because He knew all along what I would be writing about.

I also expected that I would have several posts done in advance, in case of illness or something like that, and that once I began publishing, I would continue without interruption through the end of the poem. Also, not true. I have learned a lot of things about myself in the past year (things that have happened to me in the past), and I am honestly stunned to be writing about them where the whole world can see. I am a very private person, and I keep things close in my heart. Apparently God thinks it is time I shared more of myself and what I am learning. This I shall do, as soon as I have healed enough…..and He gives me the words (and courage), to pick up where I left off.

I have a very strong sense that the time is not right – there is still something I have yet to learn, before the writing will begin again. I am grateful for this understanding, as it allows me the luxury of not beating myself up for failing to complete this project like it was ‘supposed’ to be done. According to my plan.

I am also grateful for the support, love, and prayers I receive from all of you. I couldn’t do this otherwise. I would be grateful for your continued prayers on my behalf, and I want you to know that you are all in mine.

Love & Prayers, 


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About Becky Ward

Becky is a wife, mother of four (One in heaven), grandmother of five, and a "re-formed Catholic" who, after receiving the gift of a deep conversion in 2006, and working through the Disciples of Jesus and Mary faith formation program, now considers herself to be "fully Catholic" What this means is that she now, at last, understands and appreciates the beauty of the Catholic faith in such a way that she wants to share it with everyone. "I've heard that the Blessed Mother told a visionary, 'If Catholics really lived their faith, the whole world would be Catholic.' I see the truth in this, and it is my deepest hope to be a living example that draws others to Jesus. Given the nickname Rebel-Becca by her mother, Becky strongly identifies with St. John the Baptist and his call to "make straight the path of the Lord", and with his role as "Friend of the Bridegroom". The poem, "Broken?" written through her hand, is a reflection of the journey of the soul, and Becky explains what the Holy Spirit is teaching her as she writes posts for each stanza.

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    It appears there is alot going on in your life and my prayers are with you as your journey unfolds.

  • LizEst

    Still keeping you in prayer, Becky. God bless you!

  • CeciliaMarks

    Becky, isn’t God amazing?! He knows us better than we know ourselves which is something I keep forgetting but He doesn’t. To “feel” Him, to “know” His movements is a great gift. However, the courage to respond to these movements is also a gift. Isn’t there a poem about the footprints of others are imprinted on our hearts? Well, thru words you have touched me. The article you wrote regarding your Adoration experience answered some questions I had in my life. Also, as you see, my computer connection is working! Many of us have you in our prayers, thank you….

    • Becky Ward

      Cecilia, you are a great inspiration and comfort to me! God Bless You Always!!

      Yes, God is amazing…..and thank you for you kind words.

  • Peg


    Without question, I will continue to hold you up in prayer, and I’d ask you do the same for me. While our journeys are different, I can relate to your need for privacy.

    Healing and discernment are very important and trying to fast-forward spiritual growth never turns out well, at least that’s been my experience.

    Peace and blessings to you now and in the future…

  • judeen

     there is a time for everything… Gods time… pacience… we leave behind emotions, feelings.. wants ,, plans… it is all in Gods time… and when we learn what we need to do.. we leave behind, embarrassment , pride, selfishness so on.. to help others to find God heal and love God and one another.. our life has a purpose, meaning. a reason. learning from each other to grow in Holyiness.. and even the trial of waiting paceintly is part of the walk.. to let go… be still and know He is God

  • Praying for you too! God Bless! And thank you for all you’ve shared with us! 🙂

  • $19933969

    Prayers for you Becky – God bless you as you continue to walk more and more in His light and healing love.

  • “I am grateful for this understanding, as it allows me the luxury of not beating myself up for failing to complete this project like it was ‘supposed’ to be done.  According to my plan.”

    In that Sentence, Becky, you have said it ALL……that is the Wisdom from the Holy Spirit Himself. You shall never know how many hearts you have helped to heal and how many souls you have, and you will continue to claim back for Christ…….you are a Gift to us all.  We pray for you daily……but then, you know that already.

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